Early Riser!

So I went to bed pretty early last night only to wake up at 3am today! O well I have my first real day of work today at PetSmart so its no big deal! I am really excited about getting the job at PetSmart! I am working in PetCare which is small animals like hampsters, birds, fish, and reptiles! I am also getting paid more then ever! $8.40!!!!! I was expecting $7.95 like the rest of the world but they said from my experience at the zoo and the job I am going to go into then that was the right number! So when I woke up this morning I couldn't go back to sleep I was awake and ready to start my day! I have to work at 8am so I decided to get up and take a bath and do my morning stuff. Its only a part time job but I will probly get called in and so getting about 30+ hours which is great with the pay! And since PetSmart is all over the place in time I could move to whereever and still have a job! Now I know what you are thinking...that I didn't get very much sleep but really I got 7 hours and my body just woke up! Went to bed at 8pm so ya no worries there! Here are some pics I took all but one of them! Someday I want to do photography as a hobby! I have won sevral awards for my photos at the zoo and now I do artsy photo's! These are just some of those and some fun ones! I will upload all my artsy photos later! Well better finish getting ready for work *sigh* I like saying that!


My atempt at photo art!

More art!

I used myself as art!

Mom in a funny mask! We have so much fun together!

I thought this was cute!

A new Start!

I am so excited! Yesterday I had to go take a drug test for PetSmart! That means that they hired me! So by about Wed this week they should have the results and then I will be working part time at PetSmart!!! I am extremely excited and can't wait! Right now I am trying to relax and stay strong hoping that I won't get sick! I think I will do ok! Anywho just thought I would brag alittle! Now I just need to get mom a job!

Determination!

So I had a great time watching the superbowl last night! I went with mom and dad to a couple they meet with for bible study and we had a great time! They had a 47'' Hi-Def TV that was really nice and lot's of snack's! It was fun except that the cards lost :( Makes me sad! On another note I called PetSmart today and was like "Hi this is Hannah I met you about a week and a half ago!" And Jeff(the guy who does the hiring) was like "Oh Ya I remember you! The one who works at the zoo right
?" I was like "Ya! I was woundering if you have looked at my resume yet?" "No, not yet I have been really swamped the last couple of weeks but I will make some time today, K?" "K, you remember my name right?" "Ya, Hannah Lewis. Worked at the zoo and wants to get into something with animals and has a pretty smile!" "Yap thats right. Thanks bye!" I guess I made an impression on him! Hope this pan's out! I will call him tomarow to see if he has looked at it! I must have determination and be persistant!

Bad Night!

So last night I went to bed around 12am like I do every night! As I was falling asleep I was thinking of sweet things! But 4 times last night that I can remember I woke up crying and sobbing! My face wet with tears! 2 I woke up kinda yelling! What the heck is wrong with me? This has only happened one other time and that was an odd situation so.... well superbowl is today so put on that brave face and watch! I am rooting for the cards because the orangs at the zoo picked their shirt first! Well got to get on with life! Toodles!

Retrospect!

I have been thinking about a lot of things latly! Mostly about love and getting married and all that! I talked to Brian for the past couple of days and I have noticed that my view is a little weird! It seems to me like it should be like a movie all romance and swooning but I know thats not true at the same time! *sigh* I think of the times I have said this isn't what I want because I want something else but then not really regret it but wounder what would have happened if... I hate that word if! If this and if that! If I had stayed with.... if I had done better in.... if I hadn't of said.... if seems so pointless!

But the fact is that if is a natural way to rationlize things! To make it seem better. But when I think about all my if's they arn't to say that anything would be better just differnet. I don't regret any decition I have ever mayed but would love to know how things would have turned out. That is why I am taking a bigger stand on love. Then I think about God and how he controls all this and think about how my parents have raised me. God will bring it to us.... when God gives us this it will be better.... God will provide everything for you.... but if you just wait for God to do everything your life won't go anywhere. All this comes down to me being more forward with feeling in love. I will not seek it but when I have it in my sites watch out.

Why do we make the decitions we do? Is it our nature or is there a higher power that knows the decition we are going to make? We have freewill but if all is pre ordaned by God then we must be ment for something and God will not just bring us to it. We need to grab it and take it. This is something I have been working on for a while.

Love is expansive. It takes my breath away. The way I want it and watch it. My heart pounds for you love. My love reaches, cry's, yell's for you love. The deep well of unemaganable passion streams from my fingers tword you. Everything I am is love but there is not place to put such things. I want to explode for you love. Take you always. I would die for you love. I would live for you. Take my time for you. Do everything for you love. But why have you forgotten me love. Everywher I look you are there but not for me. I jump for you. Have thoughts for you. Everything for you. But when will you be there for me. You have touched me and sent love through me but then taken it away. Why?

Anyway I thought I would share it. Better go to bed now! Hannah

Been a while!

So its been a while since I posted! I have been feeling really tired all the time! Sleeping 12 or more hours at a time and needing to stay in bed all day. I would try to do things but got so tired I would lay down and fall asleep. Then on my monthly visit I keep getting really sick and throw up for about a day! Its happened two months in a row! I am now feeling a bit better and can stay on the comp for more then a few minets. I have been having a really rough time and just plain don't feel well. But I am still trying to get a job and plan to go to PetSmart tomarow to set up an interview. I have also been thinking about Grandma! She is all alone up there and I feel like someone should be with her just in case! *sigh* This has been bugging me for like 3 days and is eating away at me! But I need to get a job and pay off some things and then save for a car then I can think of moving! That is my plan and I really want to stick to it! Hopefully I won't get sick again for a really long time!

Crazy People!

I am so sick of some people! They are so rude and inconciderate of others feelings! Last night I got a txt at 11:02 from a girl named Jamie! She is the kinda girlfriend of one of my really good friends Steve. Well it was telling me to pick up my cat(which is at Steves) and that she think Steve likes me and that I should just take him. Then she goes off on how me and Steve and I should be happy together. Then gripes about Steve not appriciating going out and drinking! Then she is like if you don't come get your cat I am going to let it loose! :O I was in shock! I told her to stop txting me! Fine I just let your cat out! Then she starts to say that Steve will never pay me back and that he hates me and that she let my cat out! I finally told her that if she keeps threatning me and my cat that I would show up to her custudy hearing for her son and testify aginst her plus I could call the cops for threatning me and have her taken in on animal cruelty. She finally was like Steve dosn't care and I don't either and I just let your cat outside! Then nothing! I was really worried that she may have done something and couldn't sleep. But around 2am I was starting to get sleepy and then another txt comes through! Your cat is in the rain and Steve hates you now! I wanted to break down crying and I was shaking with anger! I know none of what she says is true because Steve would never do that but why would she even say it? I can't believe that there are people out there like her! So I couldn't sleep and when mom and dad got up at 5am I was in the kitchen eating some cheese! What a night!